It’s really weird to be able to have fun and do stuff and not feel this super weight of crushing guilt coming down on me because I have a job and everything is moving in the right direction and all I gotta do is just keep rolling with it.
I don’t have any money yet but that’s fine because I know when money is coming and I can survive until then.
And I feel stable you know? Like I have a great relationship and I’m starting a steady job with decent pay that is going to help me learn really useful skills and wow to think 6 months ago I wanted to crawl into a hole and die and I thought I would never amount to anything because I couldn’t even manage my day to day life. But I was taking on way too much at once, when I wasn’t ready for it. I’ve taken a step back and I’m going at things from a different angle now, working from the bottom up. And it’s paying off!